The author shares her experience of having her fourth child at the age of 40, highlighting both the joys and challenges of being an older mother. Having her first child at 31, she always envisioned a larger family but took her time to establish her career and personal life before expanding her family. The pregnancy and delivery of her youngest son went smoothly, and she found herself more prepared for the late-night wake-ups compared to her earlier parenting days. However, she soon realized that her friendships had changed; while her peers enjoyed more free time as their children grew independent, she remained deeply involved in parenting an elementary school-aged child. This difference in lifestyle led to a sense of disconnection with friends, particularly when it came to social gatherings. The author also expresses her worries about not being around long enough for her youngest son as he grows up, fearing she may miss out on relationships with his future children. Despite these challenges, she does not regret her decision to have a child later in life, appreciating the financial stability and perspective it has brought to her motherhood experience.